GOD IN THE MAGIC MIRROR AGAIN

Kundalini Rising


 

   As I was meditating one day, the face of God appeared in my magic mirror again. This time God appeared as a woman.
  Suddenly God spoke to me, "I would like to dispel some more misconceptions," she said. "Almost every human being believes that God is male. I contain both male and female qualities--as do most humans. A lot of people would consider that statement blasphemous, but they would be calling God blasphemous, wouldn't they? Does that make sense? The masculine and the feminine can be found everywhere within the realm of physical manifestation. How could I possibly just be male? I am everything, not just the masculine."
  God continued, "Based on what I have just said, I'm afraid that I need to clarify a few more things. A lot of people spend a great deal of time developing a winning personality that will help them get a job or gain them respect or fame or wealth or happiness. People, however, are not born with a personality. People create ideas about themselves and sooner or later believe that they have a personality, but the personality is transient and disappears when a person dies. As I have shown you many times--in order to know Me, you have to lose yourself. You know Me when your personality vanishes, but, as I have suggested, a human's personality is often tied directly to whether they are male or female. On the spiritual level, that is an illusion, just as the personality is an illusion."
  God continued, "Let me give you a few examples. Remember the time you felt an icy cold fluid rise up your spine, the fluid so cold that it burned you? That was the kundalini energy rising from your root chakra to your brain. Do you remember what happened next?"















 

Floating above My Body


 

   I replied, "Yes, God. I floated above my body. I looked down and could see the back of my head and realized that I was beginning to go bald. That startled me!"
  "Did anything else about that experience startle you?" God inquired.
  I replied, "Yes, God. I was no longer attached to my body or to my masculinity. My personality had vanished. I was a soul or a spirit floating around outside of my body."
  God replied, "Soul is the correct nomenclature. Your soul evolves through numerous incarnations. Sometimes you're a male, sometimes you are a female. In each incarnation, some people care more about your personality, and some people care more about your soul. After more than a few incarnations, you eventually begin to distinguish between those two types of people, and you become more attached to people who care about your soul."
  I replied, "Yeah, God. That makes sense. More and more often in my current incarnation, I am attracted to the soul of other people, not to their personality or their physical appearance."

 

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Ballooning Consciousness


 

   God continued, "That has happened due to a number of experiences, I think. I know you did not try to raise your kundalini. In your case, it just happened, but after it happened, you began to experience moments of absolute bliss related to your kundalini experience. Do you remember that?"
  I replied, "Yes, God, of course. I felt like my consciousness was 'ballooning.' That's how I still refer to those experiences."
  God asked, "What did you experience besides bliss?"
  I replied, "I think I see where you are going with this, God. In each case, my personality vanished, and I felt one with Universal Consciousness, and I knew the unity and divinity within all of creation."












 

Seeing Flowers with the Eyes of God


 

   "Let me provide a few more examples," God stated. "Do you remember the time when you were on a hike, and you suddenly felt like God was perceiving the world through you?"
  "Yes, I will never forget that, God," I responded. "I felt like God--I mean You--was seeing the world through my eyes. I wasn't on drugs or anything like that if you want to know the truth."
  "Oh, I know the truth," God replied. "Can you think of anything else notable about the experience?"
  "Well, I was feeling absolute bliss again," I replied, "but, come to think of it, I also remember that my personality totally vanished as You were seeing through my eyes. Again, I felt one with all of creation."















 

Envisioning a Golden Balanced Cross


 

   "Very good," God replied, "I think you are starting to get My point. Remember when you went through a mental purification process and then began having visions of spiritual symbols during meditation? Do you remember envisioning a golden equal-armed cross floating in a blue sky?"
  "Why, yes, of course, God," I responded, "I had that vision repeatedly--even when I wasn't meditating. But in my vision of the balanced cross, I also envisioned indistinct angels at each end of the cross, the one at the top in a yellow robe, the one at the bottom in a blue robe, the one on my right in a red robe, the one on my left in a white robe."
  "What significance did that have for you?" God asked.
  "Well, God, you probably know that I found a description in a book of two important rituals, one known as the 'Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram,' and the other known as the 'Supreme Invoking Ritual of the Pentagram.' Both are based on the symbolism that I experienced in my vision, except that I discovered through the description of the rituals that the angel in the yellow robe is actually the Archangel Raphael, the one in the blue robe is the Archangel Gabriel, the one in the red robe is the Archangel Michael, and the one in the white robe is the Archangel Auriel."

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Archangel Raphael Dissolving into Points of Light

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   God asked, "What happened when you first performed the rituals?"
  "I invoked the Archangel Raphael," I replied.
 

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Engulfed in Points of Light


 

   "Yes, and what happened next?" God asked.
  "The Archangel dissolved into numerous points of light that rushed towards me and swirled all around me. Suddenly I knew that I was in a thought bubble of amazing complexity. Numerous mathematical symbols floated all around me. Unfortunately I am not mathematically inclined."
  "What did you feel?" God asked.
  "I felt a profound sense of eternity and the oneness of creation, and yes, my personality totally disappeared, and I felt absolute bliss."
  "That is what often happens when your personality vanishes," God stated.















 

Visited by a Dark Force


 

   "Did that experience help you to understand your purpose," God asked.
  "Well, yes, I guess so," I replied. "Soon dark forces began to attack me, but when I performed the rituals associated with my vision, the Archangels always neutralized them and protected me, which was good because often I was attacked twice a day, especially after the COVID pandemic began. In retrospect, I think that my purpose at the time was to be a spiritual warrior who neutralized dark forces to create balance."
  "How did you feel when you were being attacked?" God asked.
  "I was often scared out of my wits," I replied, "Those dark forces were extremely malicious and oppressive and menacing, but I always had faith that You and the Archangels would protect me, and You always did. Eventually the dark forces understood that I am always protected by You and the Archangels, and they stopped bothering me--after we had neutralized thousands of them by healing them and cleansing them with holy fire and holy water and filling them with Your divine light."











 

Bottom of a Reservoir in a Dry Year


 

   God suddenly asked, "Have you had any other visions?"
  "Quite a few," I responded, "but one that sticks out is a vision I had while I was exploring the bottom of a reservoir in a drought year."












 

Pounding Stone in the Inundation Zone of the Reservoir


 

   I continued, "I had discovered many Native American pounding stones at the confluence of a river and a creek and suddenly--I'm not sure quite how to explain this--I had a vision of myself in a previous life having a vision of the catastrophic consequences of building a dam that destroyed the home of many Native Americans as well as much of the riparian habitat. As strange as it may sound, I knew I was in that life a Native American myself who had envisioned the disastrous future of what had once been my home. I somehow knew in my previous life that the catastrophe was going to happen. I knew also that I could not stop it. I also knew that a genocide was going to occur and that genocide and ecocide go hand in hand. Then my former self and my current self were horrified together at the same time."












 

Preserved River Gorge


 

   God asked, "What did you do about it?"
  "With other people, I fought the proposal to build a dam on another abused river not far away, and I lost a couple of jobs because of it, but we won and preserved the river canyon and the Native American artifacts associated with that river. It was totally worth it."












 

Foundation of a House


 

   "By the way, I have a question, God, about time. When I was eleven, my Dad took me and my brother fishing. I soon got bored with fishing and explored the area, and I eventually found the foundation of a house in the floodplain of the river, which just happened to be the same river where I had experienced myself in a previous life having a vision of the catastrophic future of the Native American village site. Anyway, I jumped up on the foundation wall and carefully walked on it, pretending that I was on a tight rope. Suddenly I clearly heard a voice that stated, "You will be back in thirty-five years." I don't know if that was your voice, God, but I unexpectedly returned thirty-five years later. As I was driving on the one-lane road, I suddenly looked down into the flood plain and noticed the foundation by the river. I parked the car and climbed down the hill to the foundation, inside of which tall oak trees were reaching toward the sun. I felt like my peronality vanished in the peace that drenched the river bottom. Does all time exist at once, God?"
  "That's a simple way of looking at it. The gist of it is that people have the ability to access the past and the future. Knowing that, some people might begin to believe in predestination, but I can change what you call the future. The past and the future exist in Universal Consciousness, and if your mind is clear, your personal consciousness can access Universal Consciousness. It's not always pleasant though. Some humans throughout history have done terrible things, like committing genocide and enslaving people, as you know."















 

Black Streak under Arm


 

   "I have another question, God. If the human mind is so powerful that it can see into the past and future, can the mind also heal the physical body?"
  "I think you already know the answer to that one, my friend," God replied. "After you cleansed your chakras through the mental purification process, you were able to scan your body for negativity. You found a black streak under your arm, and with your mind you rid your aura of that negativity, right?"















 

Pondering a Growth


 

   "Yeah, and soon a large boil developed in my arm pit. After a day or two, a white growth, the size of a musket ball, popped out of the boil. That occurred two more times, twice in one armpit, once in the other. I don't know if those were cancerous growths, and I don't want to know, but I do know that I healed myself."   

   "In a way, it's kind of obvious," God replied. "If your mind can tell your body to move in many amazing ways, why shouldn't the mind also be able to heal the body?"

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Holographic Memory

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   "One more thing, God," I stated. "Once when I was resting in a messy bedroom, I experienced what I can only describe as a holographic memory. It was so real that it seemed more real that my bedroom. I felt absolute bliss, and again my personality vanished. It was a simple memory of my son playing with a toy truck at a playground. I began to suspect, though, that the mind can move from glory to glory through each waking memory. Is that possible?"
  God replied, "It is possible, but given the limitations of the physical realm, it often proves difficult for humans to maintain that kind of joy for very long. Realizing that the personality is an illusion and that you are a facet of Universal Consciousness does make it more of a possibility."














 

Pink Fairy Lanterns in the Shape of a Heart


 

   God continued, "Like the next time you go on a flower excursion and encounter pink fairy lanterns and wood stars on a slope. You will know that I am perceiving the flowers through you and you will again feel absolute bliss, and you will keep the memory of that bliss and of that beauty and be able to experience the glory again to some degree. Remember that your memory is very powerful because it is also part of My memory."

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