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Poppies in February
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APT. 18
 

 

 

   The people in Apt 18 invite you in with open arms. They provide you with a delicious dinner and an intoxicating beverage and show you to a room complete with a comfortable bed and soft, warm blankets. You are so thankful and can't help but love them for their generosity. The next day, they demand that you clean up all the dirt and grime in their apartment, but at dinner they don't give you enough to eat. They let you know then that they are the managers of the apartment complex, and they expect you to clean every vacant apartment until each one is spotless, and you will have to pay them for any extra food that you might need (which means that you will eventually go deeply into debt). It's your choice, of course, they say. Because it's the only gig you can find, you have to agree. They hang you up on the wall at night on what resembles a black calvary cross and take you down when it's time for you to get ready for work. You are, after all, they say, no better than a dirty sponge or a toilet bowl brush. Their goal, they say, is to help you get used to being treated like an object. You'd think, they say, that you would know what that feels like by now.

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(You realize that you are still on the right path because near the cross you find an old box containing Chapter Nine of Rooms that Dream....)
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Native American Village Site at the Confluence of Sycamore Creek and the Kings River

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ROOMS THAT DREAM:

CHAPTER NINE

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   That night Peter during meditation envisioned the landlord and scanned his energy field. Peter found a streak of black in the landlord's brain and a lot of images of doctors and nurses in his aura.
  "I'm pretty sure the landlord has a brain tumor," Peter told Justin the following morning.
  "I have a feeling one reason you know that is because you touched the gem of Yesod, the sphere of the Moon, which enhanced your psychic tendencies," Justin responded.
  Peter smiled, "When you meet with him, tell him that you know he has a tumor and that I will try to help him."
  "Do you think he'll believe me?" Cashing asked. "I mean, I believe you, but he'll think I'm out of my freaking mind, and he'll either beat the crap out of me or laugh me out of his office."
  "Just do me a favor and tell him that you know. Also, make sure you take those signatures and letters with you. Let him know we're not finished yet," Peter emphasized.
  "You got it," Justin stated. "I'm ready for this guy, I think...."
  Having some time to kill before the meeting, Justin drove out to the foothills. He stood at the edge of the forest and gazed down at the denuded slopes of a reservoir that was now, in the drought, a wasteland, the river flowing as it had before the dam was built, revealing bridge abutments and an old road etched along the banks. If one stepped beyond the tangle of roots projecting into the reservoir and scrambled down the slope on loose rock and sand, as Justin had recently done, one could hike along the river on an old trail submerged for many decades to ancient village sites of Native Americans, past a chimney with one name carved in several places into the brick.
  Standing at the end of the dirt road, Justin unexpectedly felt tears welling in his eyes, and he couldn't quite figure out why. His family had come out to the river many times, before they began vanishing one by one, and the dirt road, washed out in places, reminded him of those times decades before when he had taken his family for granted. But it was more than the loss of his family members; he had felt a sudden connection to the spirit of the earth, to a peace that transcended time and space, a peace which had permeated the physical world before any life as we know it, and which would remain long after the human race was gone. He had only felt that connection a few times since his childhood, and it always reminded Justin of his father, who seemed especially in tune with the peace of the earth soul.
  But it was more than that. Justin knew these village sites as if he were gazing from the end of the old road into the collective subconscious, and he felt desolated even as he felt a deep connection with the earth soul, as if he were suffering the experience of genocide. And now, as he gazed at the denuded slopes and the river flowing peacefully as it once had before the dam was built, he recognized the partner of genocide, the ecocide that turns lush woodland forest into wasteland.
  It was so quiet. Justin was startled by a newt rustling leaves next to the road. Suddenly he understood another aspect of the magical symbol of Tiphareth, the central sphere on the mystical Tree of life. Tiphareth, meaning "Beauty," contains a black crucifix in front of a bright yellow sun, the cross symbolizing, to Justin, the crucifixion of the soul within the physical body, the transmutation of force into form. But now Justin understood the symbol in terms of the vision of sorrow. Everything was transient, so sorrow was inevitable, but when Justin remembered the man on the cross, he understood that the greatest blessing can sometimes occur during the worst suffering and desolation, that the greatest potential for the transformation of pain into courage and love sometimes manifests in the worst circumstances.
  Justin hiked back to his car and headed to his meeting with the landlord. At the appointed time, Cashing was quickly ushered into the landlord's office.
  "Do you know why you're here?" the landlord asked.
  "Because you want to make a deal?" Cashing replied.
  "Because I want you to look long and hard at me before I crush you like you're a cockroach," the landlord said.
  "I don't understand how a man who has cancer can talk like that to other people," Cashing stated.
  The landlord looked surprised. "How did you know that?" he asked. "Nobody else knows. I've made sure of that."
  "I have a wise friend who knows many things," Cashing replied.
  "Don't give me that crap," the landlord said. "Tell me or I'll see that you don't step foot out of this office." The landlord pressed a button and two very large men stepped through the door.
  "Okay, okay. You're not going to believe this. Just bear with me here a second," Cashing muttered.
  "You have two minutes," the landlord replied.
  "Okay, okay. I have a friend. And this friend has visions. Not only does he have visions, but I'm pretty sure he can heal people too."   

  One of the bodyguards with his fist hit Cashing hard on the side of the head.
  "Okay, wait a minute. Just listen. The doctors thought I had cancer too, lung cancer. I don't know how he did it, but my friend saw the cancer in a vision, and somehow the cancer went away. I think he healed me. I know it sounds totally crazy, but he wants you to know that he'll try to help you."
  The bodyguard raised his fist again, but paused.
  "You're saying that this friend of yours somehow envisioned my brain tumor even though he has never met me?" the landlord laughed.   

  "Yeah, that's what I'm saying," Cashing replied nervously. "He knows who you are. Just knowing your name and what you look like is enough for him. And he said that he'd be willing to help you too. Did I mention that?"
  The landlord motioned and the bodyguard stepped back. "You really expect me to believe this nonsense?" the landlord asked. "Do you know who I am? I don't play games, Mr. Cashing."
  "Look, I know the score. I can only guess how he does it, but I'm here, aren't I? Knowing him has made me realize the power of focused thought. I mean imagine for just one moment that the mind has the power to transcend certain physical limitations. You can see how the human mind has been able to change the environment in truly amazing ways throughout history. But imagine that through concentrated thought we are also able to affect each other on a basic level, a subconscious level. We can heal each other or make each other ill. We can raise each other to the level of angels or reduce each other to the level of beasts through the power of the mind because at some primal level we are all connected. Each of us is an energy field within a vast, cosmic energy field, and everything is connected. We just need to harness that energy by focusing every aspect of our being, our spirit, mind and body, on whatever we intend to do. I firmly believe now that to be truly healed physically we have to heal ourselves and each other on the emotional, mental, and spiritual levels, and I am almost completely certain that my friend can establish a profound connection with almost anyone, even you. He can touch people on a deep, subconscious level. I think everyone is capable of doing that, but somehow he has developed the ability to a very high degree. This is beyond everything that our society wants us to believe, I know. I don't think I would have believed it myself if I hadn't experienced it. He challenges my beliefs every day in one way or another just by being himself. I guess that's why I'm here. Frankly, I don't know why he or anyone else would want to help you. All I know is that you might have a chance if you just give him a chance. From what I understand everything else has failed for you up to this point. Am I right? What have you got to lose?" Justin was starting to sweat.
  The landlord looked Cashing over. "Very interesting, Mr. Cashing. You realize I'll break both your kneecaps if this doesn't work," he stated flatly.
  "Yeah, I realize that now," Cashing replied as he gazed at the box of signatures and letters that he had placed on the landlord's desk.

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All poems, stories, illustrations, and music Copyright © 2024 by Jim Robbins.

Lupine, Poppies, Bird's Eye Gilia after the Rough Fire
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APT. 19
 

 

 

   In Apt. 19, a fat demon slouches in a corner of the room. The more you tell the demon that you don't believe in him, the more it emanates malice at you. You try to convince the demon to leave, but it just grunts and shifts a little now and then in its chair. After awhile you begin shouting at it, which for some reason causes it to smile, so you attempt to reason with it. Suddenly you notice that spiders are dangling down from a corner of the ceiling. You hate spiders, so you suspect that the demon had something to do with the spider's nest suddenly appearing. You explain to the demon that a nest of spiders in your room is totally unacceptable, that no human being would ever tolerate such a thing. Suddenly more spiders appear in a different corner of the room, and you see other bugs crawling around on the floor, which makes you terrified that you will not be able to get rid of all the bugs in the apartment. Desperate, you close your eyes and call upon the great Archangels to send down angels and elementals to rid your room of the demon and all of the bugs, and in your mind's eye the room fills with numerous brilliant points of light. You feel a profound sense of eternity, and you feel totally cleansed. When you open your eyes, the room is clear: the demon and the bugs are gone.

 

 

 



(You realize that you are still on the right path because in a corner of the room you find an old box containing Chapter Ten of Rooms that Dream....)
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Pestles on a Pounding Stone (Bigger than a Buck knife)

 

 

 

 

ROOMS THAT DREAM:

CHAPTER TEN

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   A week later Cashing received a call.
  "My cancer has unexpectedly gone into remission," the landlord said, "which could possibly be more than mere coincidence, Mr. Cashing. Meet me at my office at ten."
  "Only if you don't beat the crap out of me this time," Cashing replied as the line went dead.
  Cashing decided to be fashionably late. When he was ushered into the office at fifteen minutes after ten, the landlord motioned for him to have a seat.
  "What do you want from me?" the landlord asked.
  "Personally, I'd like you to treat all people with reverence," Cashing replied. "But for now I'd just like you to stop developing in the foothills, and I'd like you to decrease the rent at the 21st Century Apartments by thirty percent."
  "You're lucky that we're friends, Mr. Cashing," the landlord smiled.
  "I'm glad you're in a better mood," Cashing replied.
  "I want to meet your friend," the landlord stated.
  "I'll see if I can arrange that, sir," Cashing sneered. "But you see, you have evicted my friend and his family from their apartment. I can't guarantee that he'll want to meet with you."
  "Tell him that is no longer a problem. In fact, he and his family can stay there rent free until the crack of doom if he is indeed responsible for the good news, but I will need to meet with him before I decide."
  "There are a couple of other matters that he would like you to address," Cashing mentioned, taking a big chance. "He would like you to make sure that a few people are taken care of, one an elderly lady who ended up in the hospital, and the other an artist who was arrested for robbery," Cashing was really starting to sweat now.
  "Yes, yes, I'll take care of it--if he is the miracle worker you say he is. Just leave my secretary with the details. Now, when can I meet the young gentleman?"
  "Tomorrow at noon. But he wants to meet with you on the ridge overlooking Sycamore Creek," Cashing said. "I'll show you how to get there and where to park. You do have a driver's license, don't you?"
  "Oh, I'm pretty sure I know how to get there. I own it, after all!"
  Peter prepared for the healing by touching four gems in the middle pillar of the Tree of Life, concentrating especially on the yellow diamond in the center. When he touched the top diamond, his personality was completely erased. He was simply a point of awareness in a vast ocean of consciousness, the observer, the observed, and the act of observation. But he was also filled with light and a sense of unity and peace and total blessing. Peter mentally brought that light down to the middle gem, a yellow diamond, and he summoned a feeling of compassion, which resonated also from the gem until he was filled with compassion and light. He brought that light down to third gem on the middle pillar, an amethyst, and suddenly in what seemed like the light of the moon, Peter felt more psychic than he had ever imagined he could be, as though he could know everything about anyone he came in contact with. Finally, he brought the light down to the bottom gemstone. He was ready.
  When Peter and Cashing arrived at the meeting place, the landlord was already waiting, having parked his Cadillac in front of the unchained gate. As far as Cashing could tell, no one else was with him.
  "Mr. Cashing, what a pleasant surprise!" the landlord exclaimed.
  "Peter is only fifteen, sir. Someone had to drive, and I promised his parents that I would make sure he was safe at all times."
  "I see. Nice to meet you, Peter. I'm looking forward to learning more about you."
  Peter nodded his head and shook the landlord's hand. Then Peter opened the gate and motioned for them to walk through.
  They strolled along quietly for half a mile. Then Justin said, "Why on earth do you have to develop this area? There are so many other places in town where you can build."
  "Mr. Cashing, why are so you worried about what I do? There are just too many people in this world right now and that is leading to other problems like mass extinctions and global warming and famine and war. We've got so many weapons of mass destruction that we can destroy the whole planet many times over. Really, I'm just small potatoes in the universal scheme of things. Why do you even bother with me?"
  "Because you are so good at adding to the world's misery. Look, you must know by now that Native Americans used to live here. Genocide took place here not very long ago, and now ecocide might soon follow. We have got to stop the destruction of the remaining ecosystems, or we might not survive as a species," Cashing replied.
  "Look, somebody else will develop this land if I don't. That's the beauty of our system of private property. Don't you know that by now? You might keep one owner from doing what he wants with his land, but chances are, you won't stop the next. What's the use, Cashing? You didn't really bring me out here for a debate, did you?" the landlord asked.
  "No, we didn't," Peter said.
  They continued walking quietly until they reached the ridge. They followed Peter down the trail to the pounding stone next to the creek. Then they crossed the creek and crawled up the side of the hill to the semicircle of stone.
  "We are here to change our karma," Peter stated.
  Both the landlord and Cashing gave Peter a funny look. "What do you mean?" the landlord asked.
  "There is a kind of magic that enables people to heal each other. At first I thought that all I needed to do was drain the negative energy away from a person and then fill that person with light, but then I realized that I need to ask the Powers of Harmony to heal and cleanse and bless the person. That is why I had a vision of a golden balanced cross with an angel at each end. The angels I envisioned are actually the Archangels Raphael, Michael, Gabriel, and Auriel, and they will heal you and cleanse you and bless you with divine love and harmony and light and wholeness and forgiveness and peace and abundance and joy.
  "Many, like Justin," Peter claimed, "have been attacked over and over for their goodness and their sense of justice until they know the magic of forgiveness. They learn to become the black cross of sacrifice before they give the terrible dark energy to a higher power for transmutation and redemption. And, believe me, a healer feels the pain of betrayal on top of everything else because the same people he is healing often turn on him out of ignorance and fear.
  "But you see, our fate is all entangled together because we are all connected, not just you and me but the streams and rocks and trees and clouds. They are part of what we are. That is the real magic: We are so connected at the level of spirit that if I change our karma through compassion and forgiveness, the karma of the world slightly changes.
  "Like you, though, I am afraid. I'm afraid of the pain, afraid that I'll fail, afraid that I won't be able to forgive because I won't be able to see your spiritual essence. I have failed to see that in people around me often before. We must see through to the essential harmony and magnificence within you and me and Justin and everyone else on this planet. Please forgive me if I have trouble doing that."
  The landlord looked surprised. "I forgive you," he stated flatly.
  "Take a deep breath and close your eyes. Try not to think of anything. Just clear your mind. In a few moments you're going to feel me touch your head. Just relax and keep your eyes closed. I'm going to cleanse you spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically. I'm going to ask the great Powers of Harmony to heal you completely."
  The landlord closed his eyes and started breathing deeply. Suddenly Peter touched his head. The landlord shuddered but did not open his eyes. To Justin, the landlord appeared to be in deep concentration.
  "Tell me what you see," Peter commanded.
  "I don't see anything."
  "Clear your mind. Go back to your first memory. Then remember when you were here before. Remember when you were here before. Clear your mind," Peter said soothingly.
  Just when Justin was about to throw up his hands, the landlord started groaning. Justin didn't know what the landlord was seeing, but Justin sensed that the landlord had slipped into an altered state, a state that the landlord would have normally considered an illusion. Justin tried to tune his mind to the landlord's reality, but Justin couldn't perceive anything. Suddenly, the landlord opened his eyes and murmured, "Yes, I was on this ridge, and I heard gunfire. A lot of people were dashing around, and soldiers were shooting at them. Oh, God, they were killing women and children. I think I was with the soldiers, but not one of them. I think I saw you. You were about to shoot an arrow at a soldier. Oh, my God, I think I shot you in the back of the head."
  "Do you remember who you were?"
  "I was a rancher. I joined the soldiers because I was angry about the Indians stealing my horses. I didn't know it was going to be that bad. I swear I didn't!"
  "I want you to know that now in this moment I forgive you. We are cleansed. I forgive you."
  The landlord turned around and clung to Peter. "Oh, my God. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry! I didn't know."
  "It's all right," Peter murmured. "Everything is all right. We are cleansed and whole again."
  "I feel like a new person. I don't know what you did, but I feel like a new person," the landlord wept.
  A week later, Justin and Peter met in the courtyard. "You really did a number on that landlord."
  "How is he, by the way? Have you heard anything?"
  "He called me to let me know that the doctors are astounded. They can't find cancer anywhere in his body!"
  "God works in mysterious ways," Peter laughed.
  Justin smiled, "The wonders never cease. The landlord has promised to help out the tenants who are in trouble. He says he's going to establish a conservancy for the land at Sycamore Creek. He's going to let you and your family stay in the apartment rent free from now on. He's made a complete turn around, which is almost as hard to believe as your spiritual gifts. You know, Peter," Justin's tone became serious, "I think I should give you the Tree of Life. You can do more good with it than I ever could."
  "I don't think you should, right now," Peter replied. "I've got my family to contend with. They wouldn't understand. If they found it, they'd probably tear it apart and sell all the gems."
  "Well, maybe the best I can do for you right now is to hang on to it until we need it again," Justin murmured.
  "You mean we'll remain partners in crime?" Peter deadpanned.
  "For as long as we can, my friend," Justin laughed. "For as long as we can."

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All poems, stories, essays, illustrations, and music Copyright © 2024 by Jim Robbins.

Ithuriel's Spears and White-tipped Lupine
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ARROWS VERSUS TANKS
 

 

 

 

 

   When I first became a political activist, I assumed that simply presenting an effective, reasonable argument to a body of elected officials would magically open their hearts and minds and convince them do the right thing, but I quickly found out that people in power rarely pay attention to citizens who do not have conspicuous political influence. Elected officials are keenly aware that being an activist in the San Joaquin Valley is like stepping with a bow and arrow into a mine field to face the tanks of a well-equipped army, so they tend to pay attention only to individuals and organizations with political fire-power. When I first stepped into the political arena, to my great chagrin I discovered that I was easily dismissed as "misinformed" and "un-American" like other activists working for sustainable communities. That all changed when I started knocking on doors for a conspicuously effective but ill-fated group that gathered a massive amount of local grassroots support through canvassing.
  My introduction to local politics occurred around the time of a federal investigation known as "Operation Rezone." Local jurisdictions are required to adopt general plans that maintain a high quality of life for the community, particularly through smart, sustainable growth. In the San Joaquin Valley, however, developers tend to chomp at the bit for local jurisdictions to adopt general plans in order to get down to the business of amending them. Rumors of bribery and extortion circulated widely in the Valley, but it wasn't until the 1980s, as developers began speculating on farmland at the edges of towns, that developers and politicians blatantly made a mockery of zoning laws and general plans.
  One lobbyist, proud of his ability to influence local elected officials, drove around in a car with a license plate that read, "REZONE." A federal probe finally began in 1994 after a Clovis City Councilman told an influential developer that he wouldn't get property in the city rezoned to "residential" unless he paid a $10,000 "fee." An investigation finally commenced after the developer started working with the FBI to gather evidence of the shakedown (1).
  The San Joaquin Valley, once a vast wildlife area fed by rivers flowing from the Sierra Nevada Mountains, by the late twentieth century had become almost completely cultivated and urbanized, with wetlands dwindling to four percent of their historical levels. Herds of deer and antelope and tule elk, as well as the predators who stalked them, had vanished in less than a century. The "natural" areas left in the Valley were farms and river bottom areas and a few wildlife refuges. By the 1980s, activists in the Valley fought to protect the remaining farmland and wetlands as well as air and water quality, caught in a seemingly never-ending political and philosophical battle between the rights of the individual property owner and the rights of the community.
  Activists at that time had to have an especially thick skin. One activist testified at numerous public hearings before local elected officials who usually dismissed or ignored his logical arguments. He continued to participate in local land-use meetings week after week even though elected officials continually questioned his credibility--if they paid any attention to him at all--revealing that one voice carries little or no weight--unless backed by money or massive public support.
  Ignored on a political level, he chose to work his way through the legal system, demanding higher review of local land use decisions. In one case the activist claimed that a prominent developer had not adequately addressed the precedent-setting and growth-inducing impacts of a subdivision in the floodplain of the San Joaquin River. The judge fined the activist $300,000 for pursuing a "frivolous lawsuit." The judge claimed that the activist, despite submitting comments for the public record, had not established an adequate record on which to base a lawsuit, thereby calling into question what can be legally deemed an "adequate record." Since the developer opted not to open his books for review of the "damages," the judge reduced the fine to $100,000.
  Being acquainted with the law, the activist appealed the case and won. The developer then turned the tables and appealed that decision, eating up more of the activist's time and money and edging him toward financial ruin.
  Another activist, hoping to preserve dwindling farmland, sued his county for inadequate environmental review of a rezone application after elected officials had ignored the concerns of his organization. The developer essentially wanted to create a new business district on farmland between two neighboring towns, which would induce massive urban growth. The lawsuit ended up convincing the developer to set aside a few acres of farmland in perpetuity as mitigation. A county official phoned the activist and revealed that the school district "had been informed" that the group's activities were "immoral." Coincidentally, the activist's school district from that day forth stopped calling him to work as a substitute teacher.
  All laws can be amended, but zoning laws are particularly vulnerable to alteration. In the Valley and many other places, great public pressure must be brought to bear upon politicians to keep them from amending general plans and altering zoning laws to allow development in agricultural or open space areas. Organizing this level of public opposition is not an easy task, especially when organizations rely on volunteers.
  There are basically two ways that democracy actually works in places like the San Joaquin Valley: You can develop a strong relationship with sympathetic elected officials or establish a large base of public support for your position on an issue. Both are daunting tasks and are seldom combined as strategies due to the limited time and resources of groups that rely on volunteers.
  Politicians tend to become sympathetic to your cause if you help get them elected, which takes a lot of grueling volunteer work, and even then politicians won't necessarily lean toward your position on any given issue since they work with other organizations and contributors and politicians in a system where quid pro quo greases the machine. The other tactic, establishing a large base of public support, works well at a local level, especially in areas like the San Joaquin Valley where city and county officials are surprised and sometimes even intimidated by citizen participation. This method, which necessarily focuses on one side of the issue, is often perceived as adversarial by politicians and vested interests.
  I know because for several years I organized and led a coalition of local environmental groups while I canvassed three days a week. Backed by massive public support, gained through door-to-door canvassing, the coalition eventually became extremely effective, but unfortunately the grassroots leaders soon were targeted and undermined.
  My organization paid its canvassers half of what they raised while canvassing, which still ruffles the feathers of purists who believe that true organizing is only accomplished by selfless volunteers--even though, oddly enough, politicians and developers are not asked to force their children to go hungry. If we did our jobs as canvassers, we made enough money to survive, which kept us from being targeted as troublemakers in the workplace (not uncommon in a society where you can be fired for chewing gum and not going in to work on your days off or getting sick too many days--even if you provide a doctor's note). When an activist loses a job, whether or not the activist's political involvement is the real cause for termination, his or her days of political organizing are usually over.
  We gathered massive public support through signatures on petitions, letters to elected officials, and contributions of any size, and the organization eventually turned into an effective, powerful machine. Doors were slammed, threats were made, and guns were occasionally pointed in our faces, but we kept knocking on doors night after night, identifying and activating supporters. Local politicians finally paid attention and hesitated to threaten or ruin or blackball individuals who participated in the democratic process--due in great part to the conspicuous public support gained by canvassers.
  Public hearings became truly beautiful events. Individuals and representatives from many different organizations would stand in front of elected officials and present effective and impassioned testimony. Even though we never orchestrated the testimony beforehand, each person who testified tended to focus on a different facet of the issue, creating a powerful cumulative effect. Democracy was actually working and the good ol' boys who machinated behind closed doors had to operate in fresh air and sunlight. Sometimes, even after they had received the required permits, developers would later give up on a project, such as a hazardous waste incinerator in a closed air basin, because of what they rightfully perceived as overwhelming public opposition.

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   Hardcore political organizers were no longer labeled "un-American" or dismissed as "uninformed" at public hearings or in the press. I had been continually amazed that elected officials could so easily toss out a term like "un-American" to stigmatize citizens who were obviously taking great personal risks by participating in the democratic process in the first place. Apparently these officials meant to imply that any citizen who interferes with a person's right to "make a buck"--a corporation's inalienable right to make money, in other words--is either a communist or a socialist--while also suggesting that the activist is so void of patriotism that he or she is both immoral and unemployable.
  My organization, through petitions and letters, established the public support for forming a Unified Air Pollution Control District in the San Joaquin Valley, and it stopped the construction of a hazardous waste incinerator and a coal-fired power plant in the Valley's closed air basin. As soon as my organization became effective, trouble descended upon it from every side. The office was broken into several times, and the organization was evicted from the office complex for overdue late charges. A sexual harassment lawsuit, which named a canvasser and several directors (for supposedly maintaining a hostile environment), was brought against the organization by an employee who had also conspired to form a copy-cat group--without a board of directors--that lured veteran canvassers away from the legitimate organization by promising higher pay under the table. Unfortunately, settling out of court proved much cheaper than a legal battle. The Fresno Bee placed the organization's recruitment ad under "Sales" to create the impression that canvassers would be selling door to door. The final nail in the coffin was an article in The Fresno Bee by a "respected" journalist who, without stating his sources, claimed that the organization kept one hundred percent of the contributions.
  The organization was a not-for-profit citizens' group, not a charity, and worked for those who didn't have the time or the money or the knowledge or the temperament to participate in the democratic process. People gave money and support to fuel an effective political machine that represented their point of view--a powerful force that included canvassers who alerted and activated the public on a large scale as well as directors who organized issue campaigns and testified at public hearings. (I'm sorry, but I can't help but believe that the "respected" journalist who implied that the organization was disreputable had to be either blind to political realities or a total sell-out.)
  After the organization closed its doors, community organizers went back to suing local governmental bodies, usually for inadequate review of the environmental impact reports, and elected officials went back to ignoring the general public.
  Success in the courts only throws a project back into the laps of the same elected officials who had approved the original permits--for further review of the report's legality, not for further examination of the project's potential harm to the community. As long as an environmental impact report is "properly written," a harmful project can admittedly contain numerous and severe "adverse impacts," and a body of elected officials can still legally approve it. The process depends on citizens' groups holding elected officials accountable for their decisions. In addition to advocating for a specific position on an issue, a group of canvassers can also go night after night into an elected official's district and let the public know how the politician, on behalf of vested interests, is attempting to gut beneficial legislation or is voting for harmful projects.
  Going to court is a last resort that only reveals the public's ineffectiveness on the political level. Going to court requires a high level of expertise, far beyond the range of most college graduates. And going to court is extremely expensive. Instead of using contributions to alert the public and gain political support, an organization can instead spend tens of thousands of dollars on court costs, which can soon land the group in bankruptcy court. Instead of using their public contributions to support activists, the money from a group that chooses litigation (over grassroots organizing) is spent on lawyers who can only stall a project, not stop it in the political arena. (This strategy can also lead to the "adverse" consequences for litigator activists mentioned above.) Yet for some reason going to court is still a respectable strategy--far more respectable to many people than the more grassroots method of canvassing door-to-door.
  Unfortunately, in places like the San Joaquin Valley, activists fighting for sustainable communities often end up twisting in the wind, no matter which method they choose.

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(1) http://articles.latimes.com/keyword/operation-rezone

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All poems, stories, essays, illustrations, and music Copyright © 2024 by Jim Robbins.

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   Just after I became a teenager, I spent less than a year in the boy scouts. I got kicked out of the troop before I had even earned Tenderfoot. I wasn't sorry about getting kicked out. Decades later, I realize that I had learned a lot about the archetype of Mars from the experience.
  At a scout meeting, we found out that we were going to Millerton Lake for a weekend of "trailblazing" so that we could all earn a merit badge. I soon forgot about it until one Saturday my Dad dragged my brother and me out of bed at sunrise to get ready for the trip. The neighborhood boys in the troop carpooled with us, and we tried to sleep during the ride to the lake, but we were all jolted back to reality after thirty minutes or so: after we arrived, the scout masters ordered us to set up camp immediately. Then we piled into a different car and headed out to the east side of the lake, where we discovered that every boy scout troop in Fresno was "trailblazing," in other words, digging a fire break--which kind of resembled a wide trail--around the edge of Millerton Lake.
  After digging and shoveling dirt and raking for two hours in the hot sun, the gang of scouts from my neighborhood plopped down on the ground and entertained the idea of deserting the trailblazing efforts and heading back to camp on foot, a hike of at least five miles through unknown terrain.
  A scout master sauntered over and yelled, "Get back to work, now!" As the scout master ambled away, Alan threw down his shovel and declared, "This is nothing but slave labor!" Alan, wild and fearless, had emerged as our ring leader after his father died of leukemia a year before. The neighborhood gang followed Alan everywhere.
  So we all threw down our shovels and took off down the hill without food or water--and without telling the scout master. We hiked along the edge of the lake, discovering that the way back was more challenging than we had anticipated. We struggled through dense riparian forest and maneuvered around large rocks on steep inclines and kept plodding along the edge of the lake, with no end in sight. Nevertheless, we managed to blaze a trail all the way to our camp--dead tired, hungry and dying of thirst by the time we got back to camp.
  None of the adults ever confronted us about going AWOL--I suspect because of worse things we did that weekend. I was two years younger than all of them, so I never worried too much about getting in trouble.
  We rested in our tent until the other scout troops returned to camp. Then Alan quickly came up with another plan. He and another scout in our troop were going to arm wrestle in the parking lot near the boat launch while the rest of us stood around them yelling, "Fight! Fight!"
  After the two of them got on their stomachs, facing each other, we started shouting. Soon a raucous crowd of scouts gathered around the pair of arm wrestlers. I quietly inched away as a scout master rushed in to break it up. A minute later, the scout master stormed back to camp, angry and humiliated. Alan and the other boy laughed uncontrollably as the crowd dispersed.
  That night, just as I was about to dive into my sleeping bag, Alan excitedly told us that he had a big surprise for us. Holding the only flashlight, Alan took off at a brisk pace in front of us, and the gang did its best to keep up. I was wondering why we were wandering around in the dark when suddenly we reached the camp of another scout troop.
  "This is a raid, boys!" Alan grinned.
  "What does that mean exactly?" I asked, already exhausted from a long day.
  "I mean jump on the tents and beat the crap out of them!" Alan commanded, pointing at a nearby tent.
  So I jumped on the tent, which immediately collapsed, and then started wailing with my fists on whatever was inside. I hit something over and over, but there was no response, either because the boys inside were petrified or because I was only pounding backpacks. I opened the flap of the tent but couldn't see anything. I didn't want to see anything.
  Suddenly Alan shouted, "Let's go!"
  Once again, we followed Alan in the dark, ending up in tall grass under an oak tree.
  "Here, hold this," he demanded, handing me the flashlight. He was grasping something else in his hands. He yelled across what seemed a black abyss, "Hey, we're over here. Troop 88 just kicked your ass! Troop 88! Over here! Come get us! Come and fight, you pussies!" Suddenly, Alan turned to us and quietly commanded, "Get down!"
  We crouched in the grass as Alan started swinging something above his head. I aimed the light at the branches in the tree and saw something flashing intermittently above us. Before I could figure out what it was, I heard footsteps rapidly approaching.
  "It's a chain," I muttered to myself, as ghostly forms entered our circle of light. Then I found myself shouting, "It's a chain! A chain!"
  The other troop stopped abruptly, hovering at the edge of the light.
  "Turn the light off," Alan commanded. "Let's get the hell out of here!"
  As I fumbled with the flashlight, Alan and the others vanished into the darkness. I dashed after them, following as well as I could their track in the grass. Soon I lost them, but I didn't dare turn on the flashlight.
  They had ditched me before at night, once even in a pitch black cave, but this time they had left me alone to fight an entire scout troop. I turned around, surprised that the other troop was not descending upon me.
  In the moonless darkness, I had no idea where I was, but I glimpsed some lights in the distance and headed towards them, hoping they weren't the lights of the rival troop. Somehow I managed, to my great surprise, to blaze a trail back to the right camp.
  I found Alan and my brother in their sleeping bags, gazing at girlie magazines in candlelight. A candle stood erect on a flat disk. I was so exhausted by then that I didn't say anything. I didn't even ask for a magazine. I just crawled into my sleeping bag and fell asleep.
  I woke up to someone yelling, "Fire! Fire!" One side of the pup tent, I discovered, had caught on fire, and I rolled out of the tent. Suddenly my head hurt. The pain was excruciating. I stood by dumbfounded as Alan and my brother beat the fire out with clothing from my backpack.
  "My head hurts bad," I moaned.
  "Just shut up and go back to sleep," my brother demanded.
  "What happened?" I asked, knowing how much Alan loved to play with matches.
  "Alan set the candle on a flare."
  "That flat disk was a flare? What the hell?"
  "Yeah, and the candle burned all the way down. Now go to sleep. And don't tell anyone!"
  We crawled back into the tent, which now had a large, smoking hole in the side, and I tried to sleep despite the smoke and the excruciating pain and the sickening smell of burnt flesh.
  The next day the older boys looked at my hair after I told them that my head hurt and they all said, "No, nothing's wrong." One of them got out a brush and told me that I had rats in my hair, the boy with the brush pulling out a few clumps of hair and quickly hiding them, saying, "No, no, nothing's wrong."
  My parents noticed immediately upon our return home that fire had burned away the hair on the back of my head, the skin black and red and shriveled up.
  Within a week, the scout masters kicked my brother and me and Alan out of the boy scout troop. I'm not sure if it was for going AWOL, for staging a "pretend" fight, for the raid on the other boy-scout troop, for the fire, or for just plain orneriness.

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The Tower: Mars, Path27

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   In retrospect, I realize that these experiences did more than "build character." They gave me a better perspective on a rather disconcerting Tarot card known as "The Tower," which is associated with Mars and the element of Fire.
  Especially in the past hundred years or so, many individuals and societies have experienced the influence of the Mars archetype. The virtues of Mars include great energy, potency, courage, strength, and the appropriate use of power. The vices of Mars include cruelty and destructiveness. Arguably in the past hundred and fifty years we have seen far too much of the latter as we collectively and individually learn how to handle the subtle force associated with the God.
  In everything he did, it seems now, my friend Alan embodied the archetype of Mars, for good or ill. He demanded loyalty in all of his battles against the world, no matter how crazy, cruel or destructive, and eventually I simply tired of what seemed like the senselessness of it all--but all along, thanks to him, we were learning the negative and positive aspects of the archetype (usually the negative).
  On the Tree of Life, Mars is primarily associated with the fifth Emanation known as Geburah, or "Power." The Emanation is referenced at the end of the Lord's Prayer as "the Power" and corresponds to the right shoulder in the "microcosm" (in other words, the individual). The God Mars personifies the forces of the fifth Emanation on the Tree of Life as well as the connecting path between the seventh and eighth Emanations, a path symbolically represented by the trump card "The Tower." Mars is also associated with number cards that reveal different facets of the archetype.

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Seven of Wands, Mars in Leo
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   When people like Alan experience the energies of the Emanation of Power, they can open up their potential for strong, charismatic leadership if they do not become unbalanced by the power of the subtle force. If unbalanced, they could end up as criminals or leaders who cruelly exploit and harm people.
  Only now, it seems, after over a century of war on a scale that humanity has never known before, are we beginning to glimpse the positive aspects of the subtle force of Mars. The subtle force can burn away false, limiting, destructive patterns and beliefs so that the truth can be known, justice can be served, order and harmony can be maintained or reestablished, and the light of higher awareness can be revealed. Mars can burn away whatever is diseased and can purify the self, eliminating what is no longer useful. Mars establishes and maintains order with great discipline and harnesses powerful forces so that they can be used productively, the way an engine or a body uses fuel. In mythology, Mars, potent with the life-force on all levels of being, has an affair with Venus, Goddess of love and beauty--which says a great deal about love and beauty joined with the power and potency of the life forces. Mars, the ultimate warrior, is awe-inspiring, even terrifying--never a God to trifle with--but the God also demonstrates a passionate love for the divine feminine.
  Unfortunately many see Mars the ultimate warrior and believe that they should use the power of the archetype to assert dominance over others for selfish, ego-driven reasons. Even though this is a common use of the subtle power of Mars, so common that it might even be considered by many the most appropriate use, it should not be treated as an ideal use of power but as an unbalanced aspect of the force of Mars, the "vice" that leads to cruelty and destruction. Mars strikes with lightning so that we can see the highest good and shakes us up so that we can prepare for the times when we need to shift the negative into something more positive. Even if the odds are heavily against us, Mars always remains on the side of the underdog who is striving for harmony and justice. During our battles, we can tune our souls to the God's energetic frequency if we have a sincere desire to create and maintain harmony for the highest good--for ourselves and our family and our neighbors and our society.

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All poems, stories, essays, illustrations, and music Copyright © 2024 by Jim Robbins.

 

 

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